currently halfway (?) through the guitar page. also actually playing the guitar, chat i went to the local music store and they let me try out this beautiful blonde telecaster and it was so amazing and smooth and i wanted to cry, although that could've been from missing 2 buses on the way there lol
also working on an old floor plan for smth that may make its way onto a shrine here. my partner from the web dev competition showed me some of her old sites and they were such lovely websites for some of the most random things. her passion for programming and also the fact that she gets it done and actually publishes it? pure inspiration. her mind guys...
yk, as much as ive had a lot of fun these past few days, i have also missed a fair bit of class. not a thing you can afford to do in secondary/high school...so i am doing my best to ignore all of it! every single one! tabled! jk jk i'll get to them sometime this weekend. probably
released from hive hell
turns out that not sitting with hives for 8 hours before taking meds for it actually increases the efficacy for said meds? this is news to me lol
your friendly neighborhool april fool has finally had the allergen pass through their system which means that i! am back in action! and also that i can throw more effort into this site while ignoring all the irl work that built up on my sick days. i'm thinking of bringing back the music page but for songs i can play on the guitar, so more of a guitar page actually. i also want to redo the sandlands page (again?) with more characters, plot, better visuals. maybe learn to make a little game, which would actually be a terrible idea right now considering my existing stack of work-in-progresses.
besides the hypotheticals and theoreticals, i've done some actual work on this site, making this page and the landing page actually legible on mobile. the last time i went on an optimization crusade like this i was using my laptop's browser emulator tool, which worked for the general stuff like fitting the content (mostly) onto the page, but showed the site as it took up the whole screen. this brought up issues with cropping as the browser search/menu bar pushes the page down, thus messing with css percentages and overall making my very sophisticated, professional, Definitely-Coded-with-Care css all wonky. that was very embarrassing to realize when i tried to show my site to a friend on my phone. it really emphasized the importance of having different physical screens to test on. this did give me the excuse to throw more javascript on this page though.
also went about cleaning up the code here which was frankly abhorrent. after that, i started to actually organize the files and images this site is made of because i made the mistake of dropping the new site version right into neocities without removing or putting aside the old version. so we're doing that too.
hope y'all are having a good april fools, enjoying your april showers, awaiting your may flowers. huzzah
my butt is incredibly itchy rn
im currently breaking out in hives for the second time today? i don't even know what set it off this time or if it was an aftershock of the big breakout. that first one sucked so much. i'm pretty sure it was because i ate a pastry that touched a nutty pastry but i only started breaking out around lunch. it started out mild so i didn't think anything of it, assumed my jeans needed to be washed, or i needed to be washed. then by the time it was time to go home i was in itch HELL. imagine sitting through a presentation and all your skin is screaming. i had to go home and take a half hour shower just to scrub myself raw abt it
all from a few almonds. fmsbl
i! am! glad! to! be! alive!! (forcefully)
i've been a busy busy bee. took several big exams (but not all of them yet. unfortunately), taking part in a web dev-related competition soon bc my eyes are too big for my stomach, waiting to see if im still gonna be employed this summer. like at all. and crashing like a plane.
on the upside i can now play 6 songs on the guitar from memory. granted they all sound terribly, but they are vaguely recognizable so we count this as a win!!! with this and also getting familiar with which chords sound like what, i feel that i am now ready to do what i had set out to do with the guitar in the first place: write original songs! it will be very fun. i will cry at least once.
yk what else sucks? the weather. the weather sucks butt around here. we lost like a week and a day to snow in late jan-feb which would be cool if it didn't mean our school year got extended to THE END OF JUNE. and we're still losing school time for storms and stuff. climate change is screwing me over personally D:
also!! i'm adding another filter to this page. not bc it really needs it, but because i need the practice with javascript. if you're reading this and you think any snippet of my code could be of use to you, go ahead and take it. this is our communal web. ^^
yello
learned a new song on the guitar, finished(ish) the filter on this page! and im finally done moveing over the old posts thank goodness
also looking back, i happened to post on a lot of triple square days lol (days where the month, day, and year are all perfect squares)
soon ill have to suck it up and publish...
sigh
there has GOT to be a better way of transporting these posts smh
problems of the life rn
im so screwed. i have no big life experiences to write abt that i haven't already written about. at least i dont remember. i should keep a journal. i would forget a journal so fast. netly im downing my family dolla sign 500 for some dental stuff what the heck. i screwed up so bad. there's no time and i want to choke. do you think they'd accept a semi-accurate retelling of a dream i had once
guys MICO is so lit actually go stream him. do the kids say that anymore
also today is made up of squared numbers!!!! yippee!!!!!!!
sigh
OH MY LORDY???? OH WOW!!!!!!!
i have finished two getting-up-in-front-of-the-class assignments and im pretty much free until tuesday. yippee!!
sticking it out...for the fam [ppl in my head]
so i've been trying to play the guitar for a good year, for a couple reasons. one of those reasons that really stands above all others is vaneprim, this band that i made up in my brain and will maybe make a page for here when i get around to writing a song for them or something. like i said there's some other reasons i do it (yk school projects, friends, genuinely enjoying it) but that's the big one.
see the issue is that the fictional in-my-head band parasite is also telling me i should learn drums. which is...okay, i could use that hand-eye coordination. but i Don't Have Time. it's not summer where i can sit around and do whatever outside of work and whatnot. i have homework, and projects, and exams approaching, and all the other stuff i need to do to keep up this human body and mind. i barely have time as it is to practice. idk
anyways this may seem counterintuitive but if you've been staying up late habitually, take that 12 hour nap. trust.
i have this problem where almost every time im trying to do something and i walk into a room, or open my bag, or a new tab or program, it's like my brain bumps into the door on the way and drops all my thoughts. It takes me a second to remember what I went in there for. I think there's a name for this phenomenon but I've forgotten what it was. It's quite the annoyance in any case.
anyway there's not enough time shenanigan fics on ao3 but i found one thats like literally so beautiful. ill put the link here when i remember to copy paste it. it had like 2 chapters unpublished and was last updated 3 years ago but i really do hope that author is having the time of their life rn. i think they deserve it (if its possible to deserve anything. the concept of that is flawed.)
site update yippee
new homepage (again) and i really do like this one. also a guestbook which is a slightly less appreciated afterthought on that page after trying and failing to make it look nice on this page. i genuinely don't know how the code for this page translates to the visual product, specifically the layout of it all but like its whatever. live laugh love ig
(my pile of assignments towers over me, growing ever taller) (i need to get out of this house)
maybe % isn't the answer
i have finally stopped putting off making the site button
also im lowkey sick of trying to make the layout of everything look good with CSS percentage that stuff sucks heavy
new local destination
"asterisk took us to the aegis the other day. their food was good, i think."
will probably remember to link the images but if not just know that the foodstuffs are from pastrypuffs on deviantart. i lifted them from tangerine tree's graphic but collection but yk.
thinking about a future
I was doing a self assessment or whatever today and it asked me where I want to be in life. Like as a goal. The problem is that I have no concrete goals other than make enough money to like confortably. My main thing that I'm looking forward is the opportunity to experience the most of the human experience as I can. I want to make art. I want to make friends. I want to see the world. I want to contribute to it. I want to set something on fire, at least once. I want to know the limits of the mind. I want to explore the corners of every city. And then I want to sequester myself in a corner of the world with my close friends. Idk is that's doable but I want it.
The hard part right now is keeping myself on track to get there. I know I need to take care of my health and be on that grind in my studies but look at everything else I could be doing. I feel greedy. I want a piece of it all.
this is my escapism activity
i have screwed things up on my home planet. woopsies.
did a pixel art of the ship finally!!
my brain is shifting to update the sandlands page bc i saw an oc website that was really really cool
also!!! "document.getElementById("test").innerHTML = window.innerWidth;" prints out the width of the window (not the screen) on whatever element "test" is (putting it here since I've had to use it twice now)
hrm
learned how to use folders. doing some organizing and adding more people pictures
i have got to learn how to garden
OH YEAH ALSO the composition of every frame in kpop music videos has got to be studied. give those singers and producers and set designers a raise
so you've been wonderin where i've been...
did a lot of things. rip squickland. hello squick station ig? (did not change the landing page. still attached.) its still not finished tho, neither the site nor the ship.
...which is its own thing. this wasnt supposed to be an actual ship? but un/fortunately i do have floor plans and lore and allat for it so there very much is a [fictional] ship associated with this site. yippee
anyway there is a lot to do and images to make and pages to create and consolidate but i feel like i kept this site in construction for too long so brief powering up before i shut it down for *drumroll please* More Construction!!
many many ideas. only two hands. the struggle of man.
milgram t3 and a new music thing?
so we all just saw that right. like...we all just saw that, right?
also while scrolling thru #milgram on the media that is social i saw someone mention a few projects like it and one of them was "The Post Traumatic Manifesto" and yall. when i tell you those songs were laced with something strong i mean like it had me crying and wobbling around my room for half an hour. that last chorus of the last song, i finished and i was like wow so cool! onto the next thing and a second passed and like Everything FLIPPED. im having thoughts. about everything. and the character website snapshot things i...i have only stopped crying because my eyes are cried out. its very heavy in subject matter otherwise id be shouting from the rooftops and in the streets about it but i respect peoples limits when it comes to this type of content. im clawing at things. weevildoing and their team are so heckin based. oh my word. oh my goodness.
also the yt comments reference some things about their characters that were on the carrd before the final video so perhaps the wayback machine is relevant here too
top 3 girls in order - nataana (refraction girl), kairi (irreverent girl), morgan (chocolate box girl) and honorary mentions tahira (splitter girl) and nurse parallel
ugh omg.
Edit: joy (chemical girl) is very quickly eating up storage space in my brain
plans for redesign
so my idea is gonna be making this more space themed like a spaceship. like spaceship floating through the void landing page, random items floating in zero g, interstellar destinations for external links, etc
idk tho not only would that take an effort (see minor in school post), but ive kinda gotten attached to the weird color scheme and layout i have going on rn
in other news i will be updating the sandlands page trust!!!
things i did
- new in construction page
- figured out how to make the site more livable on mobile
yayaya
snow days
the third snow day this week. they're never sending us back lmaoooo
wish i could say i went outside and played a little but nah, i was up in my basement playing sims instead of doing that project thats due on sunday. L :/
